Thursday, April 22, 2010
Tonight was the first night that I did not nurse Nolan before bed (except the nights when I was not home at bedtime of course, which was only a handful of times). Over the last few months (starting about the time Nolan turned 6 months) I began to notice a change in my milk supply. I hadn't changed the number of times I was pumping or feeding Nolan and I became frustrated and began to stress about my inability to provide the amount of milk that Nolan needed for each day. Nolan had been getting some formula but for the most part I had been keeping up with what he needed. As time went on my supply continued to get lower, so after trying several different things and talking with some lactation consultants I made the very difficult decision to start weaning Nolan from breastfeeding. I really struggled with this decision and was surprised at how difficult this decision was for me emotionally. I struggled with feeling that my body was failing me and not doing what I thought it should be doing, and that I was failing Nolan. As much as I was ready to stop pumping I didn't want to let go of that special time with Nolan first thing in the morning and last thing before he went to bed. However, I finally decided that instead of becoming more frustrated about not breastfeeding for as long as I had wanted to and becoming stressed about my lack of supply, I would take pride in the fact that I had breastfed for 7 months. I recognize that breastfeeding is not the only way for me to be close with Nolan and I now get to create new special times for the two of us to share. I'm sure that this is only one of the many transitions and times of letting go that I will experience being a mom, but I believe that with each of these times there will also be new things to look forward to and things to experience.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Last Sunday was Nolan's first Easter and his first trip to the park (well his first trip to the park to play). The weather was beautiful and after a morning of fellowship at church we packed a picnic lunch and headed to Holiday Park. kevin and I had gone there while I was pregnant to take pictures. We also had gone there in the fall and had attempted to take some family pictures...however, Nolan did not think that was a good idea at the time. This time he really seemed to enjoy himself. He swung in the swing for the first time and went down the slide with Kevin. We had a wonderful time.
I can't believe how fast Nolan is growing and changing. How did I become a momma of a 7 month old?!?! It is so fun watching Nolan do new things and develop into his own little person...but I wish he would slow down a bit!! He now has four teeth (two front bottom and two front top), he is sleeping most nights through the night or at the worst wakes up once, he twists, turns, and rolls to get where he wants to go, has been caught on all fours a time or two, tries to climb out of his whale tub, loves to get into anything and everything, really enjoys his jumper, and has the sweetest laugh. He is quickly becoming my little boy instead of my little baby.
Here are a few pictures from our time at the park.